I've been doing some reflecting lately. I've been looking in mirrors and I've been looking into my soul.
All of this so called "reflection" or probably what normal people do to process their daily lives, has lead me to the conclusion that I am very lucky in life in many aspects, and though I do not think that I take this for granted, I am certainly not appreciative enough.
It does not matter if you are walking at a snails pace or traveling at 100 MPH. After 60 minutes, an hour has passed regardless.
I last posted on December 27, 2012. I was a young, hopeful, 22 year old soul.
It is now June 20, 2013. Nearly half of a year has gone by and what have I been doing? I have probably been configuring some SAP solutions, I have probably liked some things on Instagram and I have probably traveled at many different speeds within one hour.
I am a slightly older, yet still young, and ever hopeful 23 year old soul. Recent events have lead to what I would call soul searching.
I have discovered an overwhelming and paradoxically balancing amount of maturity and immaturity in myself lately. In reality I drive a Honda Civic, live in an apartment and go work a desk job. In my mind I live in a world of champagne and diamonds, yachting around the south of France. While most people day dream, it is easy for them to make a clear distinction between their day and their delusion. My problem is the weekends and the time I take off of work. They pseudo bridge the gap between my mindset and my life, and this makes it all the more confusing.
During my recent reflections I have also been assessing my life "problems" but my problem is that I don't really have any. This is stupid but my problems really are the epitome of first world problems. When my biggest decision is summer 2014: Yacht Week Croatia or backpacking SE Asia or visiting South America, it is hard to consider that a problem. I am not naïve. I am not uninformed. I am not unaware. I have just not had to deal with many things in life. This has probably left be quite ill-equipped to deal with life. My actual (and real) biggest problem, is that I probably won't know how to deal with any big problem in my life when it strikes.
Pursuant to conversations on recent reflection, I started to feel weird or bad or something about having not had hardships. Someone told me that I should not feel this way. In my mind the only way to live in reality is to process the hardships of the real world. But should I expose myself to darkness if it isn't necessary?
To sum up all of this nonsense--I think to myself "life is champagne and sunshine" and then I later reflect that life may just sometimes be sparkling water and overcast skies. If I want it to be, life CAN be champagne and sunshine. I think it is just important to know that sometimes you may not have cold bottle ready to pop and sometimes you may have to bring a rain coat.
